Thursday, May 24, 2007

An experience that changed me forever!!!

The irony of life is you always learn the hard way! The loss of a friend… a family member… a near and dear one wrecks havoc in our lives! It teaches us a whole lot of life’s lessons!! I learnt a lot of lessons on that fateful day! Maybe it was a time when I could comprehend what was happening! Whatever it was I understood clearly what I was forced to deal with!

It’s almost a year from that dreadful day and I can still picture it. I lost a dear friend that day… I lost a part of me! He was always positive, cheerful and intellectual!! He was a dear friend… A loving and caring son… an affectionate brother! He dealt with things in his own way… in his own time! But he dealt with them rationally! He taught me a lesson ill never forget, he taught me it in the hardest way! He taught me life’s not about tomorrow, life’s not about worries…. it’s all about living in the moment! Unfortunately I didn’t learn it well enough! Fortunately his memory will stay with me forever and eventually I will learn it! Is that consolation enough for the loss?? That’s something I will never understand! There was something about him… he always understood… he always knew the right thing to say… he knew where it hurt… he knew how to help heal it! There was one flaw but he was just too kind!

He had his own set of goals, dreams, barriers he wanted to tear down and he would go to any extent to fulfill it! That’s a lesson I’m delighted I did learn! Determination and courage hand in hand they do wonders! His death put a great mind to rest! But it also stirred a lot others! To learn from the hero… to reach where he was … to able to set a target and not only reach it… but bring it down at your feet… crumbling under pressure! That’s what set him apart from them all… everything in his life was filled with passion, enthusiasm, care and love!

The experience of knowing him changed me forever! The experience of his death taught me things I don’t think I would have learned any other way!! He was a special guy! An angel in disguise alright! Somehow how much ever I try… I can’t begin to explain the impact he’s had, has and will have on me and my life! But it goes to say… that he’s left me speechless! Is it something I will forget with time? I don’t think so! Will death keep me from learning from him? I don’t think so!!

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Is it possible to enjoy the beauty of the silent night while wishing the sun would rise to spread warmth to every part of your body? Is it possible to love despite the fear of loss and hurt? I hope so!!

We go through the worst phases and come out fine! A little scratched but fine! It’s all about believing in you! I believe I can fly… I believe I’m fine! :) I believe there’s hope for a better tomorrow! I believe that everything gets better with love and time! I guess someone was right when they said “it’s better to love and hurt than never to have loved” and yes there is something absolutely beautiful about the silent night something contrasting to the warm and bright summer morning nevertheless beautiful!

That’s the best part of life, isn’t it? Looking for joy and peace everywhere and when you can do that, you are truly blissful! When the world turns its back on you, but you learn to stay strong, you are truly a hero!

From when I was old enough to understand it I have walked life’s road to achieve it! I think on this very very important crossroad, I’m a little closer to that part of my life....where life is full of thorns but you just don’t get pricked! Or just didn’t see the thorn among the bunch of roses!

I don’t know if that stage actually exists in one’s life! But I’m willing to do anything to find out! My sis once told me that things aren’t always as bad as were make them out to afterall ‘ What the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the master calls the butterfly’. So maybe getting there..... attaining pure bliss ain’t all that hard. It’s all about faith!This time it's faith in you!

Somehow everything is easier if you believe in you….If you have a friend in you…. If you love you! The highest of mountains aren’t high enough if you know you can conquer them, the strongest of currents aren’t strong enough if you know you can swim right through them! Nothing is impossible and I guess the key is to just believe!!