Thursday, July 22, 2010

Somewhere I belong...

Seated in a large room, I look around me. So many people seem to so easily blend into another. There is such a rush to fit in that soon enough people even begin to dress, talk and feel like the other. I never understood this concept of fitting in. To me everyone is a unique combination of ideas and thoughts. I never bothered very much in the effort to belong anywhere. My self proclaimed nonchalant attitude does come across in the way I speak and behave. I used to not be this. I felt a need to be accepted in the hip and happening group. That emotion didn’t stay with me for too long. Thankfully. As I grew older, I made friends. Some for years, some for months, some of same gender, some of the opposite gender. Each one with characteristics special to them. Some that I play and joke around with. Some that I share deep rooted philosophies with. Others a random mix match of all the above. This gives me an arena where I will always belong, where I am accepted for exactly the way I am. Making the concept of absorbing the surroundings and recreating almost dead to me. As I see people around me change and morph themselves depending on the company I wonder if the idea of true self exists. No matter the company, does one not have an identity that one sticks to? More often than not I am told I am a hyper child. I agree completely. But another, deeper side to me does exist, which is an integral part of me. I don't argue the various layers and sides to a person. But just the inclination to lose oneself in the ideas of another.

In an attempt to not be left out, I notice people try hard, very hard. Impressing the ones that stand out. Probably forgetting a bit of themselves over time. I am absolutely grateful right now, to be so comfortable around myself that I have lost the need to impress. I make friends slowly, sieving through the masks to see the real ones. While keeping the dear ones that matter close.

As I make my way out of the room, I look around to see a familiar face or two and I smile. I know it will take time, but I will make new friends. Ones that are brave enough to show me who they are and stick up for their beliefs without any farce. Till then, I walk in the secure realm of my mind with the people I love.

11 comments:

Prasanna V L said...

Some where you belong... :-)

I'm not a man with words like you. But I can say this, It's just brilliant and wonderful :-)

I have no more words with me to say how much I love it.

Parth Jhala said...

Great thought.
"secure realm of my mind" That phrase is going to stay in my memory for a long time! Beautifully written!

kneehara said...

beautifully written my love! :*
you put so many things in so few words.. :)im so proud! :) :) :*
i love you! :* :* forever and for always! :* :* :)

shuuuu said...

:) there are different layers to a person and ur first layer is a HYPER CHILD ... beauutifulllly written :):) .... muahh

Srinidhi said...

Pvee :) :) :) :) Thanks. really! :D :*

Paarth!! :* :* :* Thanks :) :*

Knee!! love you! thanks babe! :*

shuu!! :D thanks love! :* :D

Prathm said...

Beautifully written! totally agree with Parth. The 'secure realm of my mind' did something to me too.

Your flow of thoughts is getting well structured and of course the quality of your language is clearly getting better and better.

Your writing is getting professional Mins! Good work!

Vineeta said...

Nice! :)

Ashu ! said...

This is awesomeee ! :D

You make so much sense :P

Vineeta said...

Nice! :)

kneehara said...

beautifully written my love! :*
you put so many things in so few words.. :)im so proud! :) :) :*
i love you! :* :* forever and for always! :* :* :)

Parth Jhala said...

Great thought.
"secure realm of my mind" That phrase is going to stay in my memory for a long time! Beautifully written!